The Beginning

So there I was, just like most people, stuck at home, forced out of a career, going nowhere, doing nothing. I tried to enlist into the United States Air Force, but was medically disqualified after being in Basic Training for 4 months. And this is really where my story begins. After I got back home from Basic, my life forever altered by the experience, I began to question everything. I took a look around, and found that in the time I was away (4 months really isn't that long but in Basic Training, in Med Hold, it was an eternity) nothing had really changed. My friends, were still dong the same stupid stuff they had when I left. I looked at my family, and realized, that nothing had changed there either. I had changed, in ways I have yet to realize. After about 2 weeks, I came to the conclusion that I no longer fit into that environment. I could no longer live my life for the weekend, like so many of us do. Working a crappy job, for minimum wage, just to have barely enough to pay the bills, get some Ramen noodles, and have a little bit of fun before starting it all over again. Something was missing.

        I had this overwhelming desire to leave. I had a bunch of money from the time I spent in Basic, and nothing to do but leave. So I decided to get into my 1985 Toyota pickup, and do just that. Leave. I left on Aug. 22nd 2010, and now it's Nov. 27th 2010, and I still haven't found my way back home. But along my journey I had nothing but time to think (especially through Kansas), being all by myself, driving across the country in search of....something.

       This is a recording of my thoughts, musings, and soul searching while on this adventure. There is really no structure to my thoughts, no flow, but just things I have thought about, and many of which still are left unanswered. So join me in my epic quest to find meaning, to gain insights into those things which plague us all, perhaps some of your questions can be answered, or at the very least open up avenues to questions you haven't even thought of yet. Buckle up, it's going to be an interesting trip.